Chris' Journal

I will miss you norm. You were very good person in a not so good world. You will be missed....

on firday a good man killed himself. i have no idea why he did this. i have no idea what could have made him want to hurt himself and the people who loved him. i have no way of makeing it better or fixing it. i feel so angry at him for doing this and i feel so sad that he would ever feel he had to do this. i feel sad for his family and all his freinds. but most of all i wish he had reached out to someone, any fucking one, before he did this to himself. if i missed a sign or call for help then i apologize to him for not being a better person. i am sorry jim, i will miss you.......

hell yeah!!!
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Current Mood: geeky
Current Music: "Panzermensch" by And One

OK........
                    Saw Stan Ridgway (Wall of Voodoo) last night............WOW! Was maybe the best show i have seen this year. Went with Dan, Jess, and Dans sister. He played mexican radio (DUH) and most of " call of the west". I was going nuts, very few bands make the hair on the back of my neck stand, WALL OF VOODOO is one of them.

                    Also last night i got to hang out with Mr. Mikey at National mechanics. Lets say hipster night was " HOT". Not in the " Wow look at all this fine ass!" HOT. No it was more like Cambodian a jungle kind of HOT! Still was fun to see how funny the trendy kids dress. Ended up on the bus to the Frankford Terminal to get mikeys car and drop off Jeff. Side note to public transit, the new PATCO ticket system, well sir, i don't like it!!!

                  Today i got to see Stacey and Kevins baby, noland!!! Well sir, i like him. Colleen ,Melenie and i went there bareing gifts, like a couple of wise men! He was all sacked out and being as hospitable as a new born can be. I think he will be a fine member of our counter culture.

ALL RIGHT....................
........................ OI! tonight made up for a ok night at the libertine ball. the ball was good, the money was light. but fuck it, it was a free to vend!!! tonight how ever made all things right, and then some. the boot crew of DAN FRED LARRY JIM JESS MISS COLLEEN MATT and many others made it a hell of a good time. i feel like a millon and only spent small change!

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: ramstien

it's been...............
..................a long ass time since i have written on this thing. alot of things have been going on, if you can read this you already know most of it. around november i had a little heart failure, it sucked, it realy did, but i managed to get out of the hospital without diying! over the last few months i have gotten better and lost some weight (79 lbs ), have about that much more to lose. its been a strange ordeal, but its been positive thus far. i have been thinking about my life and how some things need to change, always alot of fun. alot of the thoughts i have go back to things i skipped over and should have done years ago. while cleaning out my old bed room i found alot of things that brought it all to light. my old permit, my art wrok, and alot of other things that reminded me as to what i need to be doing. i also found stuff that i realy needed to let go, so i guess it was good over all.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: none, but there should be!

so am i.................
.........the only one who hates card board CD cases? i feel if you put out $15.00 dollars for a fucking CD, you should get a real case. i mean a CD case can't be more than a few cents. its not like the case is a hard thing to make, and no trees needed to get the ax ( runs out side and hungs oak tree in yard) they are 100% plastic! .......bitch, moan, complian...........

ok,i feel better. the up side is that i got to go to best buy with big ken and get some new CDs. the one CD i am most happy to get was "MUTINY ON THE BAY: dead kennedys live in san francisco. thank you jello, where ever you are!!! i also got some thing i really needed, a new MOUSE! yes no more haveing to pull the thing six feet to go 2 inches on screen. GE brings good things to life, like the vaulcan mini gun, and my new mouse! its an optical mouse. a bit better than the 10 year old compac mouse i was useing. though my computer is a completely out of date machine, but i love BLINKY. so i will upgrade what i can. we can fix him, we have the technology, i just don't want to spend a whole lot of money! so thats about all that matters.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: MARILYN MANSON: personal jesus

DRUNK-O-GRAM
well its an other night at POO!. so ken was nice enough to come get me tonight. as me and ken walked to the front doors he says "i hope so and so's at the door, i got my knife on me!", great i think. now mind you i got mine in my boot, but thats me. we get into the club aand allis weel, so i figure its time for a wee drink!~ so i ran into kriss amd scott. kriss had a freind with her nad we all sat and bullshited for a bit. i also ran int o patrick and all. then a little fight broke out. oh lots of fun! a bouncer i know got ahold of 2 of the guys and was trying to press there heads into one. i mean he had em by there little fuckin necks and was pressing ther heads together! i was like is this shampoo? but pat got it worked out and things calmed down. i also seem to be in demand as a vendor, go me! so it was naice night of drinking and such! though i will feel this in a few more hours!

Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: kmfdm- sturm and drang

do they think........
......that we are all such mush brains, as not to know the difference between a real person and a fucking toy? if you don't know what i am talking about then check this out! http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story2&u=/050201/481/ny11802012115&e=13&ncid=1756 this pissed me off for a few reasons. the first reason is someones parents for a few seconds was " oh god, i hope its not our son!" and got to get all upset. the second reason is that although nice for a diorama its not realy that well done, i mean no ones holding the gun pointed at JOE's head! the fact that its his colt, and not an AK-47 is wrong. now that they have "CODY" what will they do with him? get him to give up top secret toy plans for next christmas??? as one who collects these 1/6 scale figures i know that this doll will be worth something, i mean how many times has a G.I. JOE been held captive by "real people"? i mean for gods sake, a toy? but its a good boost for DRAGON, they make the best! you can send the check to.....

oh and if any of get a chance to get to JCD at the barbary for the CARFAX show, come over and say hey!

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: aline sex fiend: do you sleep

the last 4 days.......
friday went to a very fun birthday party at < lj user = " BLUEMOONBABY " > 's house. had a most excellent time. got to catch up with lots of poeple and just let lose for a few hours. saturday was my sisters birthday. i had planned on us going out to dinner at one of her favorite restruants, but by the time she got home from her new job she was dead. so just stayed in and ordered food. i didn't mind so much, but that night everyone one called wanting to see if i wanted to come out! i hate when that happens. sunday was yet another installment of "FORD FAMILY THEATER" at my aunts house. now normaly i enjoy this, but this week my aunts ex was there, uncle ken. this man is such freak. he is close to haveing a real life hillbilly in ones family as you would want. so we cut out early! when i got home i got a call from < lj user = " BELLEMARIE " > wanting to hangout. now i love my sister but every time i head out with someone she asks for me to either go get her something or do something for her. this time i got to go and stamp and mail 88 envelopes. so off to the late night post office we went. thank god < lj user = " BELLEMARIE " > is such a nice girl!we then got food and went over to her moms to water some plants.

when we got there i noticed A. her dad has a fucking big t.v. and B. it was time for the Venture Brothers! if you have not seen this cartoon, do so! though i don't think she dug it, hehehehe! so monday i hung out with ken. we went looking for a belated birthday cake for my sister. and you know what, mondays are dark days for bakerys around here. so we just ended up going to the try and save and getting a nice cookie cake. though the best part was the looks on everyone we passed in the store. ken and i did look like the guys who would rob the store. was fun!

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: the monkeys in my head!

ok, so i have the worst case of hickups! they have lasted 30 mins so far!!!! though i am still giveing everyone a drunk-o-gram!!!had way too much to drink! i mean way too much yet PUAL took such care of me! met so many cool poeple who made t6he hte night fun and not just a fucking drink fest. so hate hickups!!! wish the y would go away~ well any way i go bed nowe !

Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: still hear misfits in my head

speaking of monkeys
last week my sister and i were flipping through cable and stoped at a nature show about gorillas. now as everyone who knows me knows i do like gorillas, so we sat to watch the show. as the narration was telling us about this little group of apes, the subject of there food intake came up. a full grown male can eat up to 40 lbs. of vegatation a day. this they said cused much gas for the little fellas, that made sense, but what i saw next did not. with out a break they went to a shot of one of these apes pulling out of his own ass (with his foot, not his hand but a foot!) something that looked like a green 2 lt. bottle size "loaf" of shit! now that it self may not be too bad, but its what the little fella did next the almost broke what little mind i have left. he fucking started eating said loaf!!!!! my sister was like " he didn't just do that?" i could only stare with horror. but to make matters worse the narator went on to say " they may do this as to have a warm meal." at that point my sister was yelling at me to turn it the fuck off, but by then the damage to both our minds eyes was done!

Current Mood: shocked

click!
thats the sound i heard just as i was about to start makeing dinner. it came from the outlet above the chopping block. the "click" was the ground fualt kicking off. this is no big deal normaly, just push the little rest button and all is well with the world. however this is my little world, and all is never quite well. after 20 tries at reseting the little fucker it becomes painfully clear that it is broken. this would not be so big a deal either if not for one little thing, its shut off the electric to both my gas stove and microwave! now what to do?

after finding a new outlet to replace the old one, which i am almost in disbelife that i found it in only 5 minutes. now i have put in many o light switch and outlet in this house, but only after tripping the breaker so as not to fry myself. that should have been easy, but no, thats the hard part. when i had replaced them before dad was there and he knew which breakers went to what section of house. i do not know, however, thus the game of trip the breaker and run up the stairs to see if it shut the switch off, began!

after triping like 15 switches i got to one and it made a sprak when i turned it back on. this made me less then happy. so now i am inlisting

z0mbarella so as not to be the monkey what shocks it's self!

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: the heater

here comes the sun!!!
had a good day yesterday. went over to the city to do some late as hell x-mas shopping. thank god for i. goldbergs. i was able to find the bag i needed and even a few things i was looking for. though the new store is way to clean, its still the best army navy in philly. met up with

sindia and got coffee and some realy good cake at the last drop. got to exchange x-mas presents, which i am slowly getting to everone on my list. after that we went over to franks for a few drinks. thats when the we were aproched by a mysterious old woman, who had a patch of 3 inch long wiskers on her chin and a knit hat. she said to us " circus monkey peanut!" which means in lawn nomeium " do you have a razor i can use?". its like all the freaks follow me around and come over to bug me when i am out. but i did run into an old art school teacher who i realy did learn from and respect. he was like bob ross with out all the "god bless!" and " happy sappy little fucking trees!". hell he spent an hour once just telling us about the bread his wife had baked for him. thats a man who likes his bread! it was a good to see he was well. so it was a good time.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: sounds of blinky

alive in '05
just barely! just woke up from my nyQuil induced sleep. i feel better than i did last night but still have that wonderful cough. as for the new year, lets say its off to a good start. friday night was a great time thanks to a bottle of jagger and a few good freinds! and you know its a good party when one of your freinds calls you to ask if they said anything to piss you off. i had gone with my good friend kriss and spent the next morning just hanging out and catching up on things. spent the rest of sat. recovering. sunday was just a waste of time. so i hope you all had as much fun as i did and i will see you all in the new year!

Current Mood: groggy
Current Music: blinkys many sounds

On behalf of the vendors I would like to thank everyone who came out last Saturday for the new Johns Dark Corner at the Barbaruy. I was happy to see that everyone was enjoying themselves and haveing a good time. It will make a good home for us all.

i would also like to apologize to my helper for a less than fun Sunday. Sorry. As for things around here, well they are getting better. Will post any thing interesting in my life as it comes up.

Oh, to everyone who made out on my birthday, OI!!!!!!

Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: THE WASHING MACHINE!!!

C-10
i would first like to thank CYANIDE 75, SINDIA, and BELLEMARIE for all there help. this trip would not have happened if not for all of your help. thank you.

so, how do i tell you all about this trip? well i think its safe to say that this trip was a bit of a cluster fuck. not to say it wasn't fun and a hell of adventure, but over all it could have been better! here is just some of the fun we had on the way out:

1. days before we left CYANIDE75's trunk passed away!

2. we left a day late

3. SINDIA's car almost lost a back tier

4. we discovered the many other uses for the " club "

5. OHIO has one less possum

6. OHIO really sucks, but has really clean rest stops

7. sleep is for the weak

once we had made it to our hotel, things picked up.

1. they let us have a room early!!!!!

2. the vendors hall was what god bathroom would look like

3. showers, god the wonderful shower!!!

4. my partners in crime had a good time out saturday night, i went nap, naps!!!

5. sunday was fun and i finally made it out the the events.

6. saw a good friend and got to take the el.

MONDAY!!! i was realy worried how monday would go. we need do lots of things just to leave the city. but not only did we get every thing done but we even got in a visit to alanas.

the trip home! that was not nearly as fun as the ride out. i will say sleep dep. is not good for anyone. by the time we were half way through pennsylvania we were all a bit grouchy . oh, and by the way, pennsylvania is nothing but fucking hills!!!

well now..........
in 1980 a laser sight for a rifle or pistol was close to 2500.00$ dollars. i just bought a airsoft pistol set with laser sight and all sorts of other junk for under 20.00$! and its a real laser sight for a shot ya dead gun!!! i share this cause i fucking can. so lets see, hummmmmm? well i am getting to that point of insanity that is vending. so much leather so little time. there is a new family member in the familial ford. thats three new ones in the last 3 years! replacements are good. oh and my "buddy" gone hurt himself. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! but i do hope he makes a full and painful recvery. so thats it for now.

Current Mood: hyper
Current Music: scream - the misfits demo cd

GOOD GOD!!!
i never want to hear rock away beach by the ramones on the "new adventures of schooby doo" ever again! god its a shit cartoon, for christ sakes! so anyway its 3;31Am and i should be asleep, but i felt the need to write a little. i would like to say to my freinds who watched me drink myself stupid, thanks! cheap drinks are the devil. it was great to see dan and barb and little dom. and yes you too, silly girl!:) it was also very good to see mikey, he was a good sign. i will be going out more and will be catching up with lots of my good freinds. so take it easy and be well!

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